Before I begin, be warned – the following is me rambling and
may not be grammatically correct. I’m
trying to start a habit of blogging and I know that if I write, wait,
proofread, wait, proofread again and then publish, it will never get to the
publishing stage. Once I get in the
habit, the writing will improve (I hope)!
I’m 45 years old and I’m STILL trying to figure out my
life. About a year and a half ago, after
working for many years, I left the work force to stay home. For the first 5 months I spent almost every
day working on our house remodel. Then
the holidays came. We got to a “good
enough for now” stopping point and prepared to celebrate with friends and
family. After the holidays, we were
still so exhausted and tired of all the manual labor and mess that we didn’t
start again for about 3-4 months. During
our hiatus, I don’t even really know what I did, but I did not seem to
accomplish much. Some of the time was spent working at my
parents’ convenience store, but mostly not much got done. Once I started working on the remodel again,
I continued for 3-4 months. Then we were
pretty much done with what we could do.
We didn’t do our bathroom (we still have a plywood floor) and we have
one bedroom (currently the “tool room”) that hasn’t even been touched; it’s too
full of tools and “stuff”. Until we can
build another storage unit to put the stuff, we can’t do any more work. So, I guess we are done with the remodel.
Now, I have to do something else. I have realized that I am extremely
disorganized. Oh, I knew I was “kind of”
disorganized, but now I see that it is really a problem. I start on one thing, then see something
else, then something else, etc, etc, etc.
I work on a lot of things, but none of them seem to get done.
After discussing with my husband, I have determined that I really
need to create a schedule/to do list. I
have come to realize that I don’t like change, including changing from one task
to another. This creates a problem for
me – if I know I have to work at the store at 4pm, for example, I can’t seem to
start anything significant before then. I
end up wasting the entire day. Logically
I know that I could still get several things done, but just having that 4pm
deadline hanging over my head keeps me from starting.
Now that my eyes have been opened to this shortcoming, I
hope that I can fix it. Of course it
doesn’t hurt that I am no longer working at the store. As I am writing this, it occurs to me that I also
know this about myself – I ALWAYS get stuff done when there is a hard deadline (not
just one I created as a “hope to be done by this time”). Maybe writing all this down will help me see
myself more clearly and realistically. I
hope it will also help me figure out why I never had trouble getting stuff done
at work. Maybe because it was someone
else’s deadline? Any thoughts would be
appreciated.
FYI – working on this blog IS on my to-do list! But, since it is not the only thing on the
list, I guess I’ll move on to the next item.
Until next time,
Ronda
